I fear friendship
as some fear death,
It makes me afraid
when I feel it so near.

You have it so easy....
You're caring and kind
You're nothing like me,
not a freak who has lost her mind.

You don't get upset
You don't lose your temper,
You don't give in to temptation
You don't live a lie.

I do not deserve this
your love and your kindness,
I can no longer allow myself
to need you.

You deserve better then what I can offer
Of that I am certain
But I control how you feel
The rest is up to you.

If you choose me
You choose a life of patience and healing
A slow life
A difficult path

But, if you do not choose a life with me
then you make things so much easier.
Easier for you anyways.

That way you'll be able to live your life
Without any interference from me.
You'll be better off
You'll be happy.

I'm a cutter and a whore
a bad influence and a child
A disaster that destroys
everything in its path.

I've made bad choices
that much is obvious
I'm trying my best to help you from making one.

I know I shouldn't say this
The words have lost their meaning
but before I go I must let you know
I love you..